Well its been a while since my last update so I thought I would enlighten/bore those who are interested!! Last sunday I did the REace For Life with my fabulous Uni mates, we raised about 1200 pounds for Cancer Research. I thought that I would be able to complete the course under my own steam but by the end of the warm up I was fading so was really pleased that one of my wonderful friends had borrowed a wheelchair. They all took it in turns to push me, bless them. It was a great but tiring day and I cannot thank them all enough for their kindness and support throughout my ordeal. A few of them had some VERY touching things written on their backs which made me wanna cry :-)I know that their friends and families read my blog to, so a big hello to you guys too and thank you for your thought and prayers, they really mean a lot to me.

Have been to the hospital today and thank goodness my neutraphils are ok (4.5) so I can have chemo on friday. This is the penultimate one (fingers crossed) but I really dont want to have anymore. I keep reminding myself how lucky I am and at least I can HAVE chemo for goodness sake, but it just seems to get harder and harder. I think it s bit like labour, "I can't do it, I can't do it, oh I did it!!" kind of a thing. This chemo is much more potent and to be honest more down right painful that the last, although there has been no sickness so far, a positive I think. The guy who assessed me today said I should take pain killers but I worry that there are so many other chemicals in my blood!!!!!

I am still holding on to the positives, the liver tumour has not moved, the lymph node is no longer palpable and the breast tumour has shrunk from 7.5cm+ to about 3.5cm (before this lot of chemo). All I can hope for is that I continue on this path and in a years time maybe I can help other people through this experience, reassure or comfort them. All I know is that this journey has taught me a lot about myself and made me confront and deal with things that I may have been avoiding. It has also taught me the true meaning of friendship!!!